Wednesday

Time.

No matter which way I slice or dice it...
This is the one thing I do not have enough of...
It's running out...
It gets wasted...
I just need it to stop!

Each moment I can literally feel slipping away from me.
I am supposed to be moved to Florida by now.
AM NOT.
Kids are supposed to start school there by the 22nd.
NO CONSENT.
Belongings moved.
STILL IN NJ.
FLORIDA LIC. Completed.
NOT.


 And it really isn't me who is holding all this up.
I mean... I need certain papers signed to take my kids.
If work would decide to pay me for saving lives, working crazy ass hours, going through spinal surgery and finding out yesterday... I may need it AGAIN!!!!
thanks to my lovely little pt. who likes to swallow batteries...tries to choke himself....and I think I am super woman bouncing from one end of lock down to another!
I would have gotten my moving truck myself.
I would have not been getting all wound up.
I would have went to court and paid the crazy money they want.
I would have, could have, should have, 
But here I am typing.


Then lastly... 
I found out 2 weeks ago from a random phone call from my mom that my father was in the hospital.
I of course assumed it was his heart...
(the entire family ALL have heart problems..both sides)
But oh no... Life couldn't be that simple where I was concerned.
GLIOBLASTOMA.
BRAIN TUMOR.
MOST AGGRESSIVE.
WORST PROGNOSIS.
SURGERY TODAY.
I AM AT WORK, HE IS IN ARIZONA.
MY HEART PLUMMETS.
TIME.
I NEED SOME MORE TIME.
I NEED TIME TO SEE MY DAD.
I NEED TIME FOR EVERYONE TO LAY OFF.
I NEED TIME TO MOVE AND TO THINK
AND TO GET MY LIFE BACK.
I NEED TIME TO BE ON MY DAD'S SIDE.
JUST A LITTLE MORE.

please.

xoxox
Cricket

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