After an exhausting, but fun filled, girly girl weekend...and I did promise I would post "All about it..and the pics" but we all have to wait till all the proofs have been gone through~
But thought I would give you a sneak peek.....(above)
But upon returning home...and finally listening to my voice messages.... a bit of my happiness...
NO, that is a lie, a HUGE amount of it just deflated.
Listening to my mom cry 2,500 miles away, trying to still be "maternal" and protect me at 41...there really is no easy way to tell your oldest...Daddy's little girl....that 'it's just a matter of time.'
And you sit there starring at the phone....thinking, planning, crying....
You have to return to work this coming weekend.... Flying back and forth from FL to NJ...
More surgery...
I totaled my Lexus 2 weeks ago.,..and guess what..? Collision was dropped on the insurance policy.
I might add...that I was not the one who did that.
So..ok....I need to get my kids moved...get a new car..start school... get them started..and somehow accept, really accept what is happening in my family. Yet so scared to go... wanting to...but not wanting to see, feel, hear all the pain. I don't want that to haunt me. I feel selfish... but in reality...I don't know where to place all of this.
But I suppose a Higher Power will guide me in the right direction....
And I am ever so grateful for the time spent with old friends...the laughter..the fun.... and I promise....
WAIT TILL YOU SEE IT ALL! It will be a smiling post...
It's about time right?
Hope you all had a wonderful weekend...
And in linking up with BLUE MONDAY I just added this little tidbit.
And to my regular followers...thank you for all your love and support...
I love ya right back!
xoxox
C
Sorry to hear about your dad. What a shock!!! You are having a rotten time of it. So glad you had a great girly weekend in the midst of all this.
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Sorry to hear about your dad, and your car. I hope things get better for you! makes me think of a Styx song....
ReplyDeleteNothing ever goes as planned, it's a hell of a notion....
Take care sweetie, and the pic is awesome! Can't wait to see the rest!
So sorry to hear that you are going through such sad times. Breathe. Breathe. Breathe.
ReplyDeleteThere is nothing quite like spending time with girlfriends! Glad you got some time away! But so very sorry
ReplyDeleteabout all your pain. "Hang in there" as they say...things are bound to start looking up for you. dix in Texas p.s.your photo is fabulous and the poem is something to ponder!
Sorry about your pain.
ReplyDeleteMy BLUE, have a nice day!
Life is difficult; I'm sorry to hear about all of your many issues, and sorrier to read that "some people don't care back." I hope today improves for you. Happy Blue Monday, C.
ReplyDeleteMost of the time, our life is what we make it. If you can change things, do so, if not let it go, and move on.
ReplyDeleteOh sweet mermaid, I am so sorry to hear about your dad, I can't even imagine. Do what your heart says. I am so glad that you got to spend some time with friends and just have a great time, you look GORGEOUS!!!
ReplyDeleteYou are always in my thoughts and prayers.
xoxoxo
That is sad but GOD is good and he will guide you. There is always sunshine after the rain:)
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Oh Dear Cat, I am so very sorry to hear of everything you are dealing with all at once! I really have no words to offer sufficient comfort... just know that I care and you are in my Prayers. Your sneak peek is gorgeous & I'm glad you took some quality time for yourself, you need it especially right now.
ReplyDeleteHugs from the Arizona Desert... Dawn... The Bohemian
This is so absolutely gorgeous--It looks like an album cover..it's amazing. I am so sorry to hear about your dad...I know this is heartbreaking.
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Cindy
I am so sorry for all the difficult times you are going through. It seems they come I waves and hit hard! I will keep you in my thoughts.
ReplyDeleteYou photo is just gorgeous!
cat, i've often wondered if other people have ying-yang days like i do: totally exhilarated about good news or a fun time and then within the same 24 hours, coping with something on the opposite end of the spectrum. after reading this post, i don't have to wonder anymore. i trust that you weren't hurt in your car wreck!?
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