No matter which way I slice or dice it...
This is the one thing I do not have enough of...
It's running out...
It gets wasted...
I just need it to stop!
Each moment I can literally feel slipping away from me.
I am supposed to be moved to Florida by now.
AM NOT.
Kids are supposed to start school there by the 22nd.
NO CONSENT.
Belongings moved.
STILL IN NJ.
FLORIDA LIC. Completed.
NOT.
And it really isn't me who is holding all this up.
I mean... I need certain papers signed to take my kids.
If work would decide to pay me for saving lives, working crazy ass hours, going through spinal surgery and finding out yesterday... I may need it AGAIN!!!!
thanks to my lovely little pt. who likes to swallow batteries...tries to choke himself....and I think I am super woman bouncing from one end of lock down to another!
I would have gotten my moving truck myself.
I would have not been getting all wound up.
I would have went to court and paid the crazy money they want.
I would have, could have, should have,
But here I am typing.
Then lastly...
I found out 2 weeks ago from a random phone call from my mom that my father was in the hospital.
I of course assumed it was his heart...
(the entire family ALL have heart problems..both sides)
But oh no... Life couldn't be that simple where I was concerned.
GLIOBLASTOMA.
BRAIN TUMOR.
MOST AGGRESSIVE.
WORST PROGNOSIS.
SURGERY TODAY.
I AM AT WORK, HE IS IN ARIZONA.
MY HEART PLUMMETS.
TIME.
I NEED SOME MORE TIME.
I NEED TIME TO SEE MY DAD.
I NEED TIME FOR EVERYONE TO LAY OFF.
I NEED TIME TO MOVE AND TO THINK
AND TO GET MY LIFE BACK.
I NEED TIME TO BE ON MY DAD'S SIDE.
JUST A LITTLE MORE.
please.
xoxox
Cricket
Linking with WORDLESS WEDNESDAY
praying for you!!!
ReplyDeleteOh sweet friend I am so sorry, I wish I could stop time for you. I am praying for your dad and for you and I hope you are able to be with your dad and your family soon. Sending you much love and many hugs dear mermaid.
ReplyDeletexoxox
Sending some positive energy your way, and praying for a miracle for your dad.
ReplyDeleteI'm hoping your ex will realize that in trying to thwart your plans and upset your life, that what he is really doing has a direct impact on his children, and they will never forget the struggle he is making you, and them go through. Hope this works out soon, and they can start school as planned.
Stay positive sweet gypsea, positive thoughts cause positive actions.
Take care, and much love <3
Oh Sweetie, I am so sorry! I am praying for you, and your family. Go see your dad please. That is the best advice I can give you hon. I lost my dad 3 years ago. Spend the time with him. Do what YOU need to do and F*@# everything else. Stay positive girl please! Thank you for my birthday wishes!
ReplyDeleteLinda XO
Oh Dear Cat... I'm Praying for you at this difficult time and that you may be able to maintain a Peace and Order in the chaos. I often find myself in the midst of too much pressure & crisis piling up all at once. I have come to the conclusion that the devil reigns over chaos, stealing Peace, Hope & Joy... and when I can maintain my Calm, stay Centered and have a Peace in the midst of the attacks, the Lord sustains me by honoring my Faith that it will all be okay in the end... and if its not okay, then its not the end. Sending Peaceful, Joyful vibes your way my Friend & a big Bohemian Hug... I have Faith that you will come out of this Victorious! I await the Victory Post I know will come!!!
ReplyDeleteBlessings from the Arizona Desert... Dawn... The Bohemian
Keep Your head up!!! Keep the Faith!! When things are meant to happen they will, maybe not at the time you want them to happen, which is so very frustrating, BUT, all good things come to those who wait!!Too many issues at one time my dear, start with one, do what it takes to handle that, then move on to the next!! Don't try to be super woman, it only disappoints, but You are a VERY strong woman, and I know everything will work out for you....Be Patient.....wishing you the best.....love ya
ReplyDeleteI am new to your blog today. You have spoken to my heart- I, too, work in a hospital-not on the nursing end but in the admin end and it there is NEVER enough time- EVER to get done what needs to be done...either at work, at home, in my personal life-it is just a blur of time. I have had this inordinate sense of the passage of time since I was little...and I am just over 60.
ReplyDeleteDo what NEEDS to be done and let a bit go, if you can. Call your Dad and tell him you love him..that you WANT to be there..that you WILL be there if there is any way you can. He will understand.
I am saying a prayer for you for some peace in your heart and mind-because it is really more than one can bear alone, isn't it? Hugs from your newest follower- Diana
I just dropped over from Michelles from Emerald Cove and Im your newest follower (purehunnybee).
ReplyDeleteThinking of you and praying for Gods intervention and peace for you in the midst of these difficult days xo
Deborah xo